Being “Small”

Standing at 153 cm tall, and weighing around 30+ kg, I am and have been underweight for the past 10 or so years.

Since primary school days, I sat at the front row for class photo taking session. I was always one of the smallest and skinniest in class.At 20, I am still one of the smallest and skinniest in university (though I have seen people much tinier and lighter than me). Whenever people say things like ” you’re small”, ” I thought you were younger, like 13 or 14″ etc., I used to treat it as a joke and laugh it off. Then for some time, I realized that what is important is that I should be comfortable with my body. Let me get this straight, I am comfortable with my body. But I want to be better.

Realistically speaking, I can’t change much about my height. But, I can do something about my weight. Well, gaining weight is one of those things that will definitely help me attain my goals. E.g. donating blood (need to be at least 45 kg), doing activities that require me to be physically fit (one of my bucket list items is to climb Mount Kinabalu), wearing clothes that I like and many more.

Unfortunately, there are few things you need to know about me.

  • I am lazy.
  • I am a picky eater and I kind of dislike vegetables. I am not a big fan of fruits too.
  • I dislike running.
  • I honestly don’t think I would like paying for gym membership fees (not being stingy or cheapskate but I am not sure if it’s worth it).
  • I am not a sporty person. Me & Sports= no no.

I am not writing this to say that I will start to exercise and eat properly from tomorrow. Getting fit is a process, a journey that requires self-discipline. You have to put both your mind and body to it. And this writing is part of the process to start that journey (hopefully I can start it by the end of this year).

While there are so many wanting to lose weight, there are some who are struggling to gain weight (like me). Losing weight can be difficult for some people, likewise gaining weight for some people is not a piece of cake as well. Nonetheless, both need motivation, inspiration and discipline to get through; going to the same destination in the opposite directions.

Here’s a quote to inspire those who are struggling to get fit:

Everyone must choose one of two pains: The pain of discipline or the pain of regret.

-Jim Rohn

The choice is yours (and mine)!:)

Have a happy week ahead everyone!

P.S. I just realized that I wrote this faster than my assignments..hehehe

The Need to Up My Game

My last post was two months ago. Well, it clearly shows that I ain’t had the proper time to update my blog. This semester is much more difficult than the previous one. The modules are tough and I need to be tough too. Last semester, I had time to do extra revision during school time. Unfortunately, this semester, I do not have that same luxury. Assignments itself take up the bulk of my time. I guess this is what uni life is supposed to be like.  I have 5 more weeks of school to go. More assignments are due in the weeks ahead. Soon I would have to choose my subjects for next semester. Exams in another month’s time. So many things are happening at once. Can I survive this? I hope I can..

Have you ever felt terrible after a test that you studied so hard for? Honestly, that feeling is a horrible one. Have you ever prepared for an assignment and seemed a little lost while writing? Like you have no clue of how to continue or are you even in the right direction? Trust me, that sure gives me panic attacks. Constantly doubting my capabilities are not going to help. Thinking about things and people of the past are not going to help.

The only thing that is going to help is believing in myself. Believing in my abilities. I know I can do it. I have to do it. I have to change. No mistakes this time round. I have goals to achieve. AND I WILL I  ACHIEVE THEM.

And for that, I need to UP MY GAME.

I hope this post finds you well. I hope this post helps those struggling out there.Believe in yourself. When the going gets tough, the tough gets going. There is no elevator to success, you have to take the stairs.

The Road Less Travelled

Unlike many GCE A LEVEL graduates , I took the road less travelled, venturing on a journey very few would undertake.

I could have settled for a course that I had little interest in, just because it was in one of the prestigious universities in Asia.

I would have been unable to cope in that course. Fuelled by my little interest, it could have potentially turn out to be a nightmare for me.

Thankfully, fate had other plans and had let me to where I am now, happy (and sane).

Never worry if things do not work out the way YOU want, destiny would have made different plans for you. If it meant for you, it will be yours, through miracles.

Life hands everyone a different question paper, hence the journey and path to find those answers are varied.

It’s okay if you go on a different path, JUST KEEP GOING! You will reach your destination. It might be a longer and more difficult journey, but you will get there.

Who knows? Going on the path less trodden might make you the person you want to be, allowing you to achieve your full potential. The journey, filled with various perspectives, will eventually shape you into better person.
So fret not if you’re on a different path than the rest, remember you will get to where you want to be; where you will be happy.

Last but not least, don’t forget to embrace life with positivity.

Two roads diverged in the woods and I, I took the road less travelled by, and that has made all the difference. – Robert Frost

Self-Love

Self-love, seems like a simple word right? But contains a lot of deep meanings. Though the underlying idea is the same, various people have different perspectives of it. I believe self-love is an important feature in the empowerment of women. With self-love, women increase their self-confidence and self-esteem, and reach for the stars or even the sky. 

So what is self-love to me? 

Self-love is to love oneself genuinely. Do not overlook your flaws , but accept and embrace them. They make up for who you are.

Self-love is to be proud of one’s identity.             What matters is your opinion of yourself. What you think of yourself is very important, it is these unconscious forces that generate your opinion of your identity. Don’t let other people define you. You define yourself. Be proud of who you are. 

Self-love lets you embrace the challenges that life throws at you. It prepares you for hurdles and obstacles that is meant to slow you down.It increases your will power, confidence and determination.

First accept and love yourself and then you will be able to love others. 

You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserves your love and affection. -Buddha